Ouch

The Ex's Father Died yesterday

THE ex is what i call my former girlfriend of a year and a half, the relationship that felt most right, not an ex, the ex

I just got off the phone with her and she broke me

i haven't felt like crying in ages

her whimper really hit the spot

plus the fact that i'm not used to her being vulnerable, she's tough as nails when she needs to, and she's been through a hell of a lot over the past 4 years but never complained.

although we don't talk regularly, i still care for her, despite the rumors that were never confirmed, despite never giving me a reason as to why she broke up with me, she'll always be special to me

may God give her more strength for that one

will get back to you guys in a while

Allah yer7amo
K

My Love (Let me talk to you my love)

Oh how much i wanted you.


Oh how it killed me when you said no.


Killed me, to the extent that when you called me for the first time in 4 months,


I was willing to ditch (R) my first kiss


and we all know how important she was. How she had me fucked (from her effect on me) for about 3 years after



Now that i look back (M) on how i felt
i can't but wonder what magic you spelt.



but the magic is done babe, and so am I.



I see you now and can't help but think how weak you are, how life made you bitter.
It didn't help that your default setting was sarcastic bitch, was i gonna be the one putting up with all the insecurities? You changed though...



you see the sarcastic bitch was cute, because underneath it was a nice person, a beautiful, funny girl who wasn't afraid to sound foolish, when did all the insecurities pile up??????? we're supposed to grow more confident as we grow up,


yet with you only the sarcastic bitch grew, and the beautiful, confident part wasn't there to prserve her sanity.





AND i'm glad i missed the show.





If you are a firm believer in fate & that people will end up in the same place no matter which route/path they take then it wouldn't have made the tiniest difference if i was there.


And when i see what i wanted for myself i thank God that my dream didn't come true cuz honestly (M), I Don't want to be your hero anymore.