My Love (Let me talk to you my love)

Oh how much i wanted you.


Oh how it killed me when you said no.


Killed me, to the extent that when you called me for the first time in 4 months,


I was willing to ditch (R) my first kiss


and we all know how important she was. How she had me fucked (from her effect on me) for about 3 years after



Now that i look back (M) on how i felt
i can't but wonder what magic you spelt.



but the magic is done babe, and so am I.



I see you now and can't help but think how weak you are, how life made you bitter.
It didn't help that your default setting was sarcastic bitch, was i gonna be the one putting up with all the insecurities? You changed though...



you see the sarcastic bitch was cute, because underneath it was a nice person, a beautiful, funny girl who wasn't afraid to sound foolish, when did all the insecurities pile up??????? we're supposed to grow more confident as we grow up,


yet with you only the sarcastic bitch grew, and the beautiful, confident part wasn't there to prserve her sanity.





AND i'm glad i missed the show.





If you are a firm believer in fate & that people will end up in the same place no matter which route/path they take then it wouldn't have made the tiniest difference if i was there.


And when i see what i wanted for myself i thank God that my dream didn't come true cuz honestly (M), I Don't want to be your hero anymore.

Doctors and Work

My office is in a building that has a lot of doctors, and although the building is in a relatively upscale area of town, it seems that some of those doctors do a lot of work with unions or something.

Several times a month as i'm leaving work at night i get greated with the sight of a young mother crying somewhere between the ground and second floor and EVERY SINGLE TIME it's because she can't afford to treat or hospitalize her kid, it's not like their beggars or professionals or anything, and the sight of them with their family around them looking that helpless makes me feel like shit.

to be at that stage where you can't afford to treat your kid is depressing, and yet a the same time it's quite... ummm....


shit.

Tags R' Us

Section 1 - Last 1s?

1. last beverage? Sugarless Coffee
2. last phone call? College Buddy (S)
3. last instant message? (N) checking if i was going to a certain outing, i didn't
4. last cd played? Amy Winehouse's debut album "Frank".
5. last time you cried? Drunk on Tequilla and being accused of being an asshole to an all-round great Gal, not sure if it was the tequilla or the girl.

Section 2 - 6 Have You Evers:

1. dated someone twice? In General i don't, but i did it once for revenge purposes
2.been cheated on? I think so
3. kissed someone & regretted it? Why?? now that u mention it i think i do
4. lost someone special? Family members and a girl i knew from school that i cared about
5. been depressed? i'm depressed on a daily basis :)
6. been drunk and threw up? twice in my lifetime so far

Section 3 - List 3 Favourite Colors

1. Blue
2. Brown
3. A tie between Dark Grey & Pink

Section 4 - This month have you (Past Month)

1. Made a new friend? mainly got back in touch with a lot of old ones
2. Fallen out of love? I wasn't in love aslan
3. Laughed until you cried? i teared up so yes
4. Met someone who changed your life? Sadly no
5. Found out who your true friends were? Nope
6. Is there something you want to tell someone? hmmm... i guess so, but do you really want to know??? i actually am more straightforward than i should be ( for my own good)
7. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? If that means Kiss a female friend then yes, if it means anything else i'll kick your ass
8. How many people on your top friends do you know in real life? huh?
9. How many kids do you want to have? i'd rather have girls than boys but i guess ideally one of each
10. Do you have any pets? I'm allergic to cats and dogs, and i don't consider goldfish and reptiles pets so no i don't

Section Five - What Else

1. Do you wanna change your name? No, it's damn sexy baby
2. What did you do for your last birthday? previous night Went out at night to After 8 with a couple of the dudes, then on the actual day i went tanning in the morning, then lunch at sangria with some college buddies, then desert with auc buddies, then caught a movie with some more friends, it was good
3. What time did you wake up today? 7:10 am (first time i hit the snooze button was 7:10 am)
4.What were you doing at midnight last night? Driving home
5. Name something you CANNOT wait for? Finishing one of them Damn novels, peace of mind, Finding a girl who understands me and likes me for me.
6. Last time you saw your father? I see him all the time, we work together and i haven't moved out yet :(
7. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? Not sure if there's anything, if i give it more thought i'd probably tell you a couple of things though.
8.What are you listening to right now? Tristan Prettyman's live rendetion of " November"
9. Have you ever talked to Tom? Tom dah yeb2a khaltak
10. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? I blog about them behind their back too
11. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? My dad's polo shirt, ever since i lost weight i can't find summer stuff that fit
12. Who’s getting on your nerves right now? A lot of people but i choose to ignore them
13. Most visited webpage? Kitco.com, email, wikipedia (it's the devil)
14. Coke or Pepsi? Pepsi in egypt, coke elsewhere
15. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week? Yes (usually kissed and being kissed go hand in hand)
16.Mac or PC? Never tried Mac, so Mac.




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