Oh how much i wanted you.
Oh how it killed me when you said no.
Killed me, to the extent that when you called me for the first time in 4 months,
I was willing to ditch (R) my first kiss
and we all know how important she was. How she had me fucked (from her effect on me) for about 3 years after
Now that i look back (M) on how i felt
i can't but wonder what magic you spelt.
but the magic is done babe, and so am I.
I see you now and can't help but think how weak you are, how life made you bitter.
It didn't help that your default setting was sarcastic bitch, was i gonna be the one putting up with all the insecurities? You changed though...
you see the sarcastic bitch was cute, because underneath it was a nice person, a beautiful, funny girl who wasn't afraid to sound foolish, when did all the insecurities pile up??????? we're supposed to grow more confident as we grow up,
yet with you only the sarcastic bitch grew, and the beautiful, confident part wasn't there to prserve her sanity.
AND i'm glad i missed the show.
If you are a firm believer in fate & that people will end up in the same place no matter which route/path they take then it wouldn't have made the tiniest difference if i was there.
And when i see what i wanted for myself i thank God that my dream didn't come true cuz honestly (M), I Don't want to be your hero anymore.